“Alyssa, there’s something I need to talk to you about,” Jason said. They had just finished making love, and Jason was flooded with a feeling of peace, as well as hope for the outcome of this important conversation. He knew there would be many obstacles to getting his wife to cuckold him, but as he lay there looking into her warm blue eyes, he knew it was time to try overcoming those obstacles.

“Sure honey, what is it?” she said.

“I’ve been having some sexual fantasies I need to tell you about. I’m scared to tell you about them actually, because I’m afraid you’ll think they’re weird.”

Alyssa smiled an amused smile, looking Jason in the eyes.

Jason wondered how long she would be amused, he was full of anxiety, terrified to speak what was on his mind. “I’ve been reading some erotic art, art on a specific topic, for the past five years or so now. Some people would call it porn, and that’s fine, I guess it is porn, but it’s also art. I’ve come to realize that porn is art, and something that should be appreciated and enjoyed by everyone, but that’s a whole other conversation.”

Alyssa gave him a slightly disapproving look. They were both Christians, and he had never told her that he read or looked at porn before. She had the standard mistaken preconceived Christian notion that porn was a sin. Jason would talk with her at length later about why porn is not a sin, if he could. Right now he just wanted to express to her what he had been dreaming about rather heavily for the past five years, namely, her having sex with another man, while denying Jason any sex at all.

“I don’t want to get into the whole porn issue right now,” Jason said. “I just want to let you know what my fantasies have been, that I’ve been afraid to tell you, for the past five years now.”

Alyssa looked interested, and a little concerned. Something was obviously bothering her husband.

“So there’s a lot of elements to this fantasy, but there are two core elements. You know what a dominatrix is right?”

Alyssa smiled big and laughed lightly. “Yeah, I know what a dominatrix is.”

She looked amused, Jason took that as a good sign. It was better than a look of contempt or disgust. As they lay side by side facing each other, Alyssa had the covers pulled up over her breasts. Jason had a flash fantasy that she was doing this deliberately to tease and deny him the sight of her glorious bare tits, and he began to get erect. This had to work he thought, he desperately needed her to make his fantasies a reality.

“So a dominatrix is a woman who does what is called female domination,” he said. “I’ve been fantasizing about being controlled and dominated by you Alyssa.” Jason felt fearful as he made this admission, but he hoped she would take the news with amusement, and later on, after more talk, he hoped she might give the idea serious consideration. He also wanted to begin with female domination in general, before mentioning cuckolding in particular, because he knew cuckolding would shock and horrify his wife. His plan was to just get the ideas of female domination and cuckolding on the table tonight, and let her consider them over time. There was no way she would be accepting of either tonight, he knew that.

“Honey,” she said with a tone saturated in humor, “Do you mean you want me to spank you?” She laughed şirinevler escort at her own words.

“I know the whole idea sounds crazy to you, I understand. I just want to let you know what I’ve been thinking. It’s totally ok if you’re not accepting of any of this, I’m just hoping you’ll hear what I have to say, and be willing to think about it.”

“Sure honey, I love you. I’ll listen to whatever you have to say. It’s ok.”

Jason thought about the fact that she wouldn’t be saying, “I love you,” to him anymore if he got his wish. Hearing it now from her sounded odd, like a reality that was beginning to fade away. If he had his way, she’d be saying things to him like, “I’m so glad I’m never going to let you have sex with me again, Alpha is a way better lover than you ever were, and my body is only for him now.” Again he began to harden at the thought. If only she could read his mind! But no, he had to take this conversation nice and slow. Getting her to even consider his fantasies, was going to take some seriously delicate maneuvering, over a long period of time.

“Ok, so it’s not so much about spanking me, although that certainly could be a part of it. It’s more about your attitude towards me, it’s about you taking an attitude of dominance. It’s about you being powerful and in control of me, that’s the essence of female domination. And the other side of the coin is male submission, I would accept your power and control over me gladly, and I would submit to you in all things. It’s not just about the physical act of sex, it’s about every interaction we would have on any subject. You would be in control, and I would obey you completely.”

Alyssa nodded her head seriously, as if she understood. At least she didn’t seem angry, Jason was grateful for that. Perhaps with time, there was hope that his fantasies could come true.

Jason asked her how she felt about the idea of female domination, and they discussed it for quite a while. In the end, she told him she wasn’t really comfortable with it, but she would try it with him because she loved him, and she knew it was something he wanted. Jason was overjoyed at her willingness to try female domination, and realizing this was a huge victory, he decided to wait until much later to talk to her about cuckolding. First he would let her get used to dominating him, once she was comfortable with that, then he would offer the possibility of her permanently denying him her body, and having sex with another man.

Alyssa wanted to know more about porn not being a sin, so they spent some time talking about that as well. “You said porn isn’t a sin, I want to talk about that. Do you mean to tell me you’ve been looking at naked women for the past five years without telling me? How is that not a sin?”

“Honestly yes I have been looking at naked women for several years, I even have a few porn movies. But that’s not where I want to begin, because it gets emotional. You start with the fact that every person has the right to see the art and beauty of the human body. God’s creation of the human form is art, and everyone has the right to appreciate that art. Think about single men in particular, who don’t even have wives. They are going to want to know what the female body looks like, and they have the merter escort God given right to see that art. So you begin there, with the right to see the art God has made. Then you move on to erotic literature, the kind of thing I read on websites like Literotica.com. Here you recognize that people have a right to think through their sexual desires, they have a right to express themselves. So when someone writes an erotic piece of fiction, even a kinky piece of fiction, we must recognize that they have a right to be conscious about their desires, and to make their thoughts public, to share their life experiences and desires with other human beings.”

Alyssa looked like she was grasping his argument, helping Jason to feel a lot more relaxed.

Jason continued, “So the question we have to ask is, how do you get your hands on this art? How do you appreciate it? Well, for images, the answer is porn movies. It’s not that you want to have sex with someone other than your wife,” he said, looking at her with what he hoped was a lot of respect, “It’s that you need to see variety sometimes, and you need to see models, people who are professionally good looking. You’re as pretty as those models honey, probably even prettier, but the simple truth is that you can’t just think about only one person, and you can’t just look at only one person. People need to see variety. Tell me the truth, do you ever sexually fantasize about other men? People you see in movies? People you see out in public?”

“Yes, sometimes I do,” Alyssa said reluctantly.

“That’s your porn. I just have a more convenient way of accessing my porn. I have it in written stories and on DVDs. The fact is, whether you are looking at someone else in the television of your mind, or whether you are looking at them on the television in your room, you are still looking at someone in a sexual way. This goes for fantasies when reading erotic literature and it goes for fantasies about a movie star. It’s all exactly the same thing, if you fantasize about someone other than the person you are married to, you are in fact watching porn.”

Alyssa looked like she still wanted to disagree, but couldn’t escape the logic of his argument. “But why do all the pastors say that porn is a sin then?”

“They say that because they’re self-satisfied married men, who have no understanding or compassion for what single men are going through, for one thing. Take their wives away from them, and make them live single for the rest of their lives, and see if they suddenly start to realize my point of view. But I’m married and I have porn too. It’s deeper even than just being single, people need to see variety of beauty. Imagine if there was only one kind of flower, one kind of bird, one hair or eye color. God created a variety of beauty, and with it, the God given right to appreciate that variety. People are entitled to see people other than their spouse naked. And yes they’re modeling sex in porn movies, but that’s ok, because people have the God given right to appreciate the art and beauty of human sexuality, the same goes for sex scenes in erotic literature. And the pastors are ignorant of all this, because they’ve never had any motivation to think about it. They just jump on the bandwagon of hating anything sexual, because maslak escort that’s how it’s always been done in the church. Well, the church needs to wake up. There is not one Bible verse that contradicts our God given right to see the art and beauty of the human body naked, nor our God given right to see models acting out human sexuality in porn movies. These pastors you mentioned, notice that they never quote any Bible verses against porn. That’s because there are none. They just abuse people emotionally, and try to make them feel guilty for being the sexual creatures the Lord Jesus Christ made them to be. And all the Christians live in fear of these asshole pastors threatening them with eternal Hell if they own or watch art/porn. Well I’m not going to tolerate it. I’ve read the Bible from cover to cover, and I’ve read hundreds of books on Christianity, as you know Alyssa, and I can tell you there is nothing in the Bible that says owning or watching porn is a sin.”

Alyssa’s face showed her surprise at this news. She had always assumed she could just believe anything that was said to her by a pastor, but Jason was clearly right in what he was saying.

“I’m my own pastor, you know that honey,” Jason said. “I’ve spent so much time studying the Bible and Christianity, that I can think for myself regarding any issue of the Christian faith. And I’m disgusted with the way so many pastors abuse people regarding porn and their sexuality, it’s not what Jesus would do.”

“But wait, what about when Jesus says it is a sin to look at someone you’re not married to with lust? Doesn’t that mean watching porn and masturbating would be sins?”

Jason was ready for this objection, he had thought about the issue thoroughly. “The answer takes into account what I’ll call “Real sins” and “Fake sins.”” Real sins are something like stealing, or being unkind to someone, those things really are wrong. But looking at someone with “Lust” really doesn’t count. I mean come on, we all do it all the time, there’s no stopping it. If God is going to send people to Hell for looking at someone with “Lust,” then everyone in the universe is going to Hell. Thus, looking at someone with lust is a “Fake sin,” it’s a sin God doesn’t really expect people to avoid. Getting turned on and looking at someone with sexual desire is an inescapable fact of life, and God knows it, because he created things that way. The sexual drive is the strongest human drive, God created us like that, so he understands that there is no way in Hell we’re going to stop looking at people with “Lust.” So again, we have the right to look at the art and beauty of the human body and human sexuality, and if we slip up and look with lust while masturbating, God of course understands and forgives. It’s as simple as that. And it doesn’t even matter that we may commit this “Fake sin” every single day, multiple times a day, God made us this way and he understands and forgives.”

This was obviously a lot for Alyssa to take in all at once, her expression showed that she was thinking about Jason’s words carefully. “You should write something about this on the internet,” she said, “You should let people know that they can have this kind of sexual freedom and also be Christians.” With that she laid back against her pillow.

“You’re right, I should put this into a porn story, maybe it will help liberate people from the abuse of all those asshole pastors who aren’t even speaking the truth of our God given sexual rights.”

“This is a lot to think about honey, is it ok if I sleep on it?”

“Of course! I’m just glad you let me tell you what was on my mind. Thank you for being so understanding Alyssa.”